Thy Vision: not a word from thou, not a even a smile

emo?? (regarding the previous post). just cause it's the 1st time ever i write how i feel than what i think i am 'emo'? fine, i am emo but i ll not admit i am for expressing how i feel.

it's 230am and i am restless and smelly (sweating while packing for camp) so i decided to blog a little before i head to camp - ACCA leadership camp 2008 meeting at college at 7am (4 and the half hours to go.)

so, back to the emo part. it may be a fact the many, not all, but many guys hardly express their feelings be it love, hatred, jealousy, sadness... i, as you may say, is that guy but not entirely the two-faced guy. i always put a smile on my face cause i am happy and fortunate and feeling a little lucky for that day and most importantly, my little smile put a wide smile on other people.

Does that mean i am always happy? no, obviously. i do get sad and feel lonely at times but that's when i think of it - problems and feelings i can't control and understand little of. (don't worry people, i don't show this sad face to anyone. don't want to see u sad now, do i?)

i will put on my headphone and blast the music when i am angry. sometimes just switch on the tv to release stress. but, what do i do when i am sad, jealous and 'emo'? first, i have to come to my conscious-self and realised how i feel which is hard sometimes but it's very important to KNOW what am i feeling. 2nd, i ll ask why i am feeling like that? 3rd, i ll just meditate and calm my mind and try to be focus. OR i just let the feelings be and continuing having the negative feelings. (which is no good. always think positive and choose to think positive)

'don't just be physically strong, be strong MENTALLY'

Always remember the PURPOSE of LIVING and the objective of your life. that's the 'thing' that keeps me standing and fight for survival. there's always ups and downs, isn't that what makes our lives interesting and challenging?

Anyway, the truth is i am a master of hiding my feelings, my love. maybe i ll keep it that way and let time take it's path till after my studies (if i am that patient). for now, i would like everyone whos reading this line or sentence to put a wide smile on your face. and if ur friends and family is close by, turn to them and ask them to smile with you. (come to think of it, everyone smiling for no reason might actually make us looks like mad fellows huh? haha)